aLICe's 的天空

在大学的日子所剩不多了… 在这里唯一让我放不下的就是陪我渡过这漫长大学生涯的姐妹… 突然很好奇…… 我在她们心目中是怎样的… 扮演什么样的角色… 本人觉得是傻大姐风范~ 哈哈…… 昨晚听到有个姐妹说… 毕业了她会很想念我，因为她已习惯了和我生活的日子…… 听了我很感动，因为我对她也有同感…… 之前觉得她娇滴滴的，没什么脾气… 很爱闹她……想看她生气会是什么样子… 不过跟她认真相处了才知道，她也会有脾气的… 她也会顶嘴，不是那么容易被我欺负… 不过其实我还蛮开心享受看她越来越会辩解自己…维护自己… 因为我觉得这样的她才能够保护她自己… 毕竟再过多不久，大家都要进入社会工作了… 太善良太天真，恐怕会被人欺负利用。 我承认我不是什么好人…不过我也不想当坏人… 不想因为生活上和工作上的压力把自己逼疯或改变… 我想永远保持自己仅有善良的一面… 为家人为不幸人士造福… 很想在有生之日能为社会做点贡献… 让自己更有价值和意义活着… posted by 11June2013 2.00pm

who is they? uni ppl...yea..is them.. this year my uni bcum d host for dunno wat sukan.. so we nid clear off our house for them to bcum accomodation. haizz...troublesum betul... initialli our course wud hav bbQ gathering vf lecturer.. althog me n my fren stay far frm here.. but we decide to postpone our date back to hometown.. we vy rare to do thing lik tis..as i rmmbr..nvr.. but this sem ady our last sem.. n d lecturer taught us for previous 4sem.. so feel wan to join d last gathering.. tats y..althog we d one tat go back hometown earliest evytim..decide to back late.. nw..nid bz vf fyp hardcover..n sum correction for my simulation.. i juz stil figuring how to correct it.. n 2moro nid go gt my sv comment n advise for d thesis correction.. ytdy even hav dreamt bout it..dreamt my lecturer giv me vy teruk marks n ask me correct all back.. realli headache n nervous for tat.. now...tambah vf 1 issue to headache lagi..haizz i guess i juz nid to let go off d gathering....

before this i thog i was a person vf gud attitude.. i cn gt along well vf many types of ppl.. tats y i hav lots of fren.. althog so..i m realli bad in control my emotion.. heard sum fren complain bout my bad temper..emo...n blar blar.. i m a human being..emotions juz expressed out when i hav it. impossible for me to smile when i m sad.. impossible for me to cry when  i m happi.. i realli hav a changeable emotion.. i laugh easily..cry easily n pissed off easily.. i admit it..i m soft-hearted.. sumtim when heard ppl say bad thing bout my fren, i wud feel angry for it..even d ppl point is not me.. when my fren tear-dropped,i feel same in my heart.. why i m tat.. after all,ppl say  i m too emotion... i dun understand wat meant by tat... i m not god or angel..i m human being.. i smile when i happi n cry when  i sad.. but ppl tends to request me to control my emotion.. n giv me hundreds of reasons why i shud change.. dont think they r right.. but after ...

已经很久没写部落格了… 有很多的感想…不过没心情去写 这一切…全因我父亲的离逝 事情已隔6个月又5天…… 经过那件事情以后，我成长了很多 原来不经一事不长一智这一句话是对的 人……都要等到失去以后才懂得珍惜 从前只会埋怨他对我们不够好不够负责 一但讨厌了他，他所做的每一件事情都会觉得很假很虚伪 人的心只要硬了，别人对他/她的好一切都会看不到，听不见，感觉不到 得知他的死讯那一刻，我真的真的无法相信 我多么希望那一切都是假的 在往回家乡的长途巴士上，我不停不停地说服自己一切都是假的 回到家后我依然觉得那一切都是假的 经过漫长的车程…终于回到家乡… 家人接了我然后就赶到久家… 回到久家，我跪着进家门 那时，我还是依然依然不敢相信那是真的 至到我抬头看见他的遗照…眼泪直流… 那是真的…… 不过一切都来不及了…… 其实…我心里早就原谅了你…… 爸，对不起……我回来了～

之前我根本不知道这‘心累’是什么感觉, 我总觉得我是个不会心累的人。 但……此时此刻……我真的累了…… 不是身体上的累，而是发自内心，深深地感觉到累了~ 发现自己做什么事都很不上心， 之前做样样事很积极的我不见了。 我该去哪里找回‘那个我’叻？！ 我好气自己，为什么那么无能~ 为什么那么没用~ 身边的同学都在忙着赶功课和fyp.. 可是我，仍然无动于衷~ 每次同学问我关于fyp的进度， 我总会给他们一大堆的理由。 可是我很清楚的知道…… 即使我骗到了所有人，我还是骗不了我自己~ 每次表面都装得很潇洒，可是内心是自卑到不行的~ 怎么办呢？我真的好没用~

wat v usualli do when stay out at nite? on9..watch movie..or bz vf work.. tats all realli common.. ytdy was pretty cool.. when me n my frenz stay out purposeli to play poker card.. juz playing d poker card..but of cuz gt sum other chitchat.. but for me..i ady vy satisfied.. realli think tat myself is an old person.. so easy 2 b touched n satisfied.. abit 'short plug' ady i guess..haha anyway juz think tat easy satisfied vf things may not b a bad thing.. i easy 2 b hapi n easy 2 b sad as well.. sumtim sum word tat frm ppl i care.. hurted me deep.. haizz...wat happen 2 b? cnt i set my setting 2 b idle..meant no sadness n no happiness.. but if 1ppl oni in idle mode all d tim..tat shud b sad i guess.. coz all d gud thing nvr approach him/her.. n all bad thing oso nvr approach.. so...he/she wont  noe hw blissful it is.. so in conclude..juz b enjoy no matter in wat u do.. dun request urself too much.. as no 1 is 100%... being imperfect oso cn b satisfied n happi.. sooo...enjoy urs...

discovered beautiful view near hostel.. after 3 years studying here.. recentli as our klas hour is realli less... oni activity tat wont cost us is jogging.. i lik d event lotz.. as tis is d tim v cn spent our tim vf fren.. sharing evything happens around.. realli thx to my fren tat willing 2 listen to me.. althog i m realli annoying.. realli think tat i  m an annoying ppl.. dunno wat others think bout me.. but sumtim due to my stupid characteristic.. i  m able to make ppl around me happi.. i dunno tis consider gud or not.. but for myself..as long as ppls around me is happi.. tat is enuf.. no matter anything happen.. i wud brave myself to face it.. tat is d motto tat i set for myself.. as..ppl wud oni listen to ur prob.. n d final ppl tat shud take initiative n face it.. is nobody else but urself.. tis seem cruel..but its d fact.. as an adult..v nid 2 face many thing tat happen alone.. but of cuz sharing vf fren is import...