爸～

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已经很久没写部落格了…
有很多的感想…不过没心情去写
这一切…全因我父亲的离逝
事情已隔6个月又5天……
经过那件事情以后，我成长了很多

原来不经一事不长一智这一句话是对的
人……都要等到失去以后才懂得珍惜
从前只会埋怨他对我们不够好不够负责
一但讨厌了他，他所做的每一件事情都会觉得很假很虚伪
人的心只要硬了，别人对他/她的好一切都会看不到，听不见，感觉不到

得知他的死讯那一刻，我真的真的无法相信
我多么希望那一切都是假的
在往回家乡的长途巴士上，我不停不停地说服自己一切都是假的
回到家后我依然觉得那一切都是假的

经过漫长的车程…终于回到家乡…
家人接了我然后就赶到久家…
回到久家，我跪着进家门
那时，我还是依然依然不敢相信那是真的
至到我抬头看见他的遗照…眼泪直流…
那是真的……

不过一切都来不及了……
其实…我心里早就原谅了你……
爸，对不起……我回来了～








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