Lost

Its been a long time since my last blog update.
Now, I has been working for about 6months in my current job.
However, I still feeling insecure of my future.

Current job is just about troubleshooting and communicating skills.
Can't denied that during this working period, my communication skill with others is been improved.
My Mandarin and English conversing are more powerful now.
More over,  my troubleshooting skill on computer issue has become more alerting also.

But out of all these, I still seem like skill-less.
In IT field, I still feel I  am over lacking from others.
Can I still be considered as an IT person?

Since working, I knew that everyone owns their own values.
When you go interview, peoples would start to penalise you from your study background, working background, known skills and etc.
Feel so envy, when seeing other resume with lots of real experience in field. Major language like Java, VB and etc.

I am zero knowledge in all that.
Learnt those before but those script seems like floating symbol which running in my head without meaning.
Due to the insecure feeling plus working pressure and time catch up, I start to lost myself.
Yelling at other like monster.
I hate myself of being so. But, I just can't control of it.

Just found this quote from web, I guess it is not too bad of feeling lost. :)

"What it does mean is that if you feel lost, just take a deep breath and realize that being lost can be turning point of finding out who you truly are and what you truly want to do.
So don’t be afraid to lose yourself. The individual that comes out of the maze might just surprise you."



By Alice on 20141104 12.22am